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Love Your Ego!

RobotLike many on the spiritual path, for a time I was afraid to love my ego. It seemed like the goal was to push it away, even to “kill” the ego. It seemed that ego was the enemy. But then I also began to realize that this type of relationship with the ego was one of resistance, and I was committed to releasing resistance in all areas of my life. I realized it was strange that I should have resistance to something that was, after all, part of me. I realized this resistance to ego was causing me to be at war with myself.  So I began instead to send unconditional love to my ego. Once I was able to do that it was like I could see ego with more clarity than ever before, which makes sense since love is a kind of light, so the ‘darkness’ of the ego was no longer present in the light of that love. What was present was the pure distilled nature of ego, which is not evil, it is made of love just as everything in the universe is. The purpose of the ego, the reason for its original creation was simply to be a mechanism for spirit to experience separateness, the delicious separateness which allows two people to become lovers, which allows two people to become friends, which allows the human to stand in awe of the night sky. Without ego we are simply a unified flow of energy, which is what we truly are anyway, ego only allows the perception of separateness after all, since true separateness is not possible. The ego is simply a tool for creating the experience or illusion of separateness so that spirit can see itself from another perspective. It is no more or less than that. There is no sense in hating that or pushing it away. It simply is. Furthermore, this separate perspective that the ego creates allows us to learn, explore and create. When I looked around I saw that none of what I was looking at would be here without ego, it is a tool for creation itself.

I saw that when ego was first created, we were able to experience the illusion of separateness through ego, yet we had full memory and full consciousness of what we actually were – a divine flow of energy choosing a temporary form – we never lost sight of that and so it was the true Eden. We were able to play in the divine flow of creation while enjoying the beauty of it all from various distinct points of view. Resistance is something that was completely foreign to us. It was all love, and the ego was part of that, we loved the ego equally to everything else, but we were not attached to ego either, and could move into and out of form with relative ease, almost like putting on a new costume. The ego was more like a beautiful painting in a museum, that you would look at and appreciate, then move on to the next one, equally beautiful and totally unique, without feeling any pain of ‘leaving’ the first painting, just easily appreciating and loving each one that came into your experience. The “fall from grace” was a process of losing our divine memory, our link to the consciousness of our true nature. When we lost this consciousness, the ego then went from being a tool for creation to being perceived as the whole nature of our being, and the illusion of separateness then became complete. The ego was still not evil, but its purpose was to create separateness, and without a link to the wholeness of our true nature as a flow of divine energy, we became lost in the ego state.

I think of it like this – you know all those movies and books about robots taking over the world? In the beginning, the robots are always good. They are good because the serve a purpose, they are built in order to serve humanity in some way and they do it well. When they take over however, everything goes wrong, things are no longer good because the robots can’t really handle the responsibility. Without their connection to the “programmer” they run crazy, but it is more because they don’t know any better, they have no link to any greater consciousness – they are robots after all, just designed to run a program, not designed to be connected or understand the subtleties of love. So it is like that with the ego – when it was a tool to assist us all was well, when it took over however it did not do such a good job because it was never designed for that purpose. Its programming, its original purpose, was separateness, and separateness was never meant to be the force that runs the universe. The ego’s “programmer” is the soul, which is the extension of divine source. So here we are now. Our purpose now is to recover our divine memory, while still in ego. Ego is not something we can give up completely in this physical dimension, it is not designed that way. Therefore as long as we are in this physical dimension we must make peace with ego, we must reconnect to our source, and from our source we turn the infinite love back onto the ego. When we do that it sheds its darkness and we see its grace and its purpose. All things in the universe respond to love, so the ego is no different.

Love and Light,

Rhea Jamil

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Illusion

 

Perception of a Reflection

Perception of a Reflection (Photo credit: AGrinberg)

How can this experience be illusion? How can something that seems so real not be real?  Think about looking in a mirror. Is your reflection real? In a sense it is, you can see it, you can make it move, so in a way it is real. But does it have any power? No. You have the power, you can make the reflection do what you want, but the reflection cannot make you do anything, it has no power over you. Now, imagine that you decide that your reflection is real, and you don’t recognize your “self” which is looking in the mirror, you identify completely with your reflection. You will see your reflection doing things, and you will wonder what is making it happen, it will feel like you have no control, it will feel like you are a passive victim, because you don’t realize that you are making the image in the mirror move. If the image in the mirror starts slapping itself, you will not realize that you have the power to stop it from doing that. This sounds insane, and yet this is the state most of us live in. We do not realize where our true power lies. We are focused on the illusion and think that the illusion is real, and in that state we feel powerless, because in that state we are powerless. It is the state of believing that your reflection is the real. Your true self, which has the power to create the reflection, is completely ignored. The reflection is ‘real’ in the sense that it is what we experience, but it is not real in the sense that it is all there is. There is much more going on ‘behind the scenes’ and that is where the true power lies. You will never have power in the illusion, in the reflection. Your true self, acting behind the scenes, behind the mirror, is the ultimate reality and where the power lies.

How do you access this true self? This true self is most easily accessed in the stillness. It is the part of you that does not need anything, it does not need to be fed with recognition or accomplishment as the ego does, it does not need to be right and is not worried about being wrong, it does not have an agenda. Its nature is pure love, and it simply is. This is why meditation is so powerful. When the mind is quieted the true self comes through, because it is beyond thought. The true self can communicate through thought, but so much of your thinking is obscured by the false ego self that it can be hard to sort it out. The easiest way to sort it out is to follow beauty. The true self is beauty, since all truth is beauty, so your true self is the most beautiful part of who you are. Everything else is part of your illusionary self. When the true self begins to take the helm of one’s life, things begin to change, and always for the better. True self will always bring you joy, bliss and freedom. The ego self will always have a dark side. The true self itself has no dark side, it is pure light, pure being, pure love. If you stay in touch with true self through everything, you will always be steered in the direction of joy.
-Rhea Jamil